Not being a Christian and become a normal person really ease your problems?
I guess the voice is from your ownself, deep down! The more you want to give up (or move toward self distrory), your mind is telling yourself to stick wtih who you really are. Try let go and look around, further, there are many other good things to appreciate rather than to focus at HATE!!
「愛仇」是基督徒倫理的一大特色,但多少人能真正做得到呢?我若認定某人是仇敵,也表示對方曾經使我受到嚴重的傷害。很少人可以一笑泯恩仇,每當回憶舊事的不快時,總覺心心不忿。英語有云forgive and forget,意思是寬恕和忘記;學習忘記不快的經歷,實在是寬恕仇人的第一步。正如耶穌所說,天父施恩照顧善人,也照顧惡人,這樣四海皆兄弟的思維,充實愛仇的理據。怨恨消磨人的心志,令人陷入黑暗的仇恨深淵,鬱鬱不可終日。唯有寬恕和愛才可將人釋放。 (樂仁出版社供稿)